Beginning to See the Light By: Jennifer Jacobson Jennifer's Previous Story: "Caught Between Two Worlds" I am coming out of the fog of several emotional and psychological abuse situations, and the mechanics of this system of passive-aggressive, psychological/emotional subjugation is coming more clearly into focus.   I now understand how this system has kept many of us […]


Life with No Fear By: Susan Deborah Schiller and Danielle Bednarcik Do you see a world full of guns and wars, food and fuel shortages, unemployment and foreclosures? A country teetering on the edge of destruction? I used to. Now I see a world where children and youth have the solutions to problems our generation […]


The Morning Prayer Poem By: Danielle Bednarcik  Imagine you've just had a long drive, moving from out of state and you're really tired, burned out, and you wonder if you've made the right decision. Did you hear God's voice? That was me, 4 years ago. With a clear, confident voice, your 6-year old granddaughter begins […]


Arctic Winter of Isolation and Renewal

Arctic Winter of Isolation By: Susan Deborah Schiller I felt trapped in an endless Arctic chill, both emotionally and externally. Outside my window, snow-laden apple trees tempted the elk, who foraged for Fall's last MacIntosh's and Golden's. My four-legged friends visited me every day, while my husband was away.They leapt and danced, singing soft, melodious sounds. I was […]

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How Telling your Story Changes the World, Even if You are Not Ready to Share Publicly

Treasures in the Tearing By: Susan Deborah Schiller “What would happen if one woman told the truth about her life? The world would split open.” – Terrence Tempest Williams Some days it's just too hard to write another word. Do you, too, know this struggle? That's when I pull out Leigha's words and say them […]

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The Truth Cannot be Extinguished

The Truth Cannot be Extinguished By: Susan Deborah Schiller The light shines in the darkness and the darkness does not understand it, and cannot extinguish it… – Madeleine L'Engle Where does Hope come from? Hope is one of the greatest gifts of God, and it comes from His Light shining in you and me. Hope is […]

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His Eye is on the Sparrow

His Eye is on the Sparrow By: Susan Schiller Most of the world lives in poverty, even outside my doorstep. It's -28 with a windchill of -48 this morning, and I'm warm, dry and have plentiful food to eat. Oops… ummm… dare I say, "over fed"? The song, "His Eye is on the Sparrow," has […]

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The Greatest Blessing our Abusers Unknowingly Provide for Us

An Encounter at God's Beauty Spa By: Susan Deborah Schiller  What if the abuse you've endured serves to make you bigger, better, and more beautiful? What if what scares you turns into your greatest source of blessing?​ What if the ugliest things you've seen and heard are being used to make you more beautiful?  What if the weapon […]

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In Case of Sudden Disaster, Grin!

In Case of Sudden Disaster, Grin! By: Susan Deborah Schiller "I'm grooming you to grin in the face of disaster," said Papa God as I made my daily fear-dump in a worn out leather journal. Escaping a cult-church and an abusive husband at the same time had left me isolated, wrestling the growing pack of […]

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Ode to December

Ode to December By: Susan Schiller Shimmering and shining in the distance; A new beginning sparks from the embers of the old. I'm willing to be at peace with the dying; Yearning to see the dawn of this new life. Waning wintry days whisper words of hope. Like special gifts wrapped under the Christmas tree, […]

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The Fellowship of His Suffering: Jump in, Don’t Toss a Life-Saver!

The Hidden Value of Suffering A Reprint of Dr. Stephen Crosby's Article by the title "The Fellowship of His Suffering: Jump In, Don't Toss a Life-Saver! In a materialistic Christian culture that has been brainwashed by a prosperity-bless-me false gospel, the idea of suffering as part of normal Christian life, is as foreign as bacon […]

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Fully Alive, Fully Human, Fully Me

Fully Alive, Fully Human, Fully Me By: Susan Deborah Schiller What is it like to be fully alive, fully human, and fully me – the me I really am, not the me I tend to present to the world? Would I look like Christ to ones who see me every day, who know me best? […]

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Thorns By: Susan Deborah Schiller Tears. Bending in pain, I sink to the ground. Parched. Hungry. Alone. Afraid. Blood, sweat and tears. Don't look back! Agony. Father, I didn't choose this. I thought if I was good, obedient, and kind, bad things wouldn't happen. But it is not so. Whipped, scourged, beaten, and yanked down. I'm afraid I […]

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Rock Solid

Rock Solid By: Susan Deborah Schiller This picture was taken from my front yard when we lived in Montana. In 1996 I was praying all night, just getting a little dangerous… a little crazy. I asked God to give me His hardest tests. Naive, I was – not brave.  I sensed His voice reply to […]

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On Wings as Eagles

We Shall Overcome Part One of "Secret Heroes"  Part Two of "Secret Heroes"  Part Three of "Secret Heroes" By: Susan Deborah Schiller It was church as usual, once you expose illegal and immoral activities, through appropriate channels. In response, one of my church leaders threatened to rape me. One church leader claimed he was going to torture me […]

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The Avengers – Answering the Cry for Justice

The Avengers – Answering the Cry for Justice By: Susan Deborah Schiller In that foggy state between dreaming and waking I heard that quiet inner voice say, "Some people think I don't intervene and rescue them, when in reality I set in motion a plan to save every family and individual on earth. It's called […]

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When Your Heart Hurts So Bad it’s Nearly Exploding

When it Hurts so Bad You Just Have to Scream By: Susan Deborah Schiller In the series, "Conversations with Daddy" My heart was like molten lava, just exploding and pouring out. I had escaped from one sociopath, after 20-years of abuse, into another trap, but the excruciating pain was my heartache for my children. The […]

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I Have A Dream

I Have A Dream By Susan Schiller Prayer is what happens when our thoughts are focused Heavenward. A vision is a prayer written down, originating in God's heart.  Our prayers become the script of our future life stories. Colossians 3:1-2 – Since you have been raised to new life with Christ, set your sights on the realities of […]

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Silence the Abused – Cover up the Crime

Silence the Abused –  Cover Up the Crime By: Susan Deborah Schiller I was married to a sociopath for two decades. We were active Christian leaders and from all outward appearances we were "normal". That's the scariest part about sociopaths – they look like normal Christians. Like tares in a wheat field, they blend in perfectly. […]

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The World is Changing – What Anchors Your Soul?

The World is Changing By: Susan Deborah Schiller     In the series, "Passion for God" The world is changing. The wind is blowing and the waves are rising higher and higher. What anchors your soul? Faith? Art? Science? What you've always believed to be true? Recently I watched the musical, Fiddler on the Roof. […]

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